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"republicans are mean.  democrats are silly"-i forget.

so dad is in the hospital with a broken rib and two cracked ribs.  everytime he coughs he feels like he is getting stabbed.  dad is very moody/big babyish as am i.  mom made the comment that "he's just mean."  this is particularly heartbreaking because i am like my dad.  when i want to bite i can bite hard.  charlie (my bro-in-law) used to blame his wit for his meanness.  why would i be gifted with this ability to insult if i were not supposed to use it?  my cynicism isnt' as cute now that i'm grown.  it doesn't really make me interesting, it just makes me mean.

xns shouldn't be mean.  i know this intellectually, but in practice it is hard for me to swallow.  i like my mom's texan sensibility-"shoot it to me straight" much more than my dad's sachrin sweet routine.  he smiles and hugs and greets even when he doesn't sincerely feel it. 

"sincerely" that's a strange ending to a letter.  it seems to me a strange sense of accountability.  if you lie or exagerate or anything and then sign it "sincerely" its like a double lie.  "love must be sincere."  i think that is romans 12:9.  i love that whole chapter, but i digress..  the point is that i shouldn't fake love and i shouldn't be mean so i have to truly start appreciating people.  my other point is that my dad is sick and that sucks. the end.